I spent most of my life ignoring what I like
I spent most of my life ignoring what I like so that I would fit in with the crowd because it seemed like no one I knew liked what I liked and I was lonely. I didn't meet "my people" in college, which had been my hope, and instead I spiraled into addiction and an eating disorder. Now, I'm 11 years sober and nearly 5 years abstinent and getting in touch with what I like and want. Silly things, like wanting to go to a roller rink or a disco dance party on a boat in the Hudson, and I can't dine anyone to do these things with me. I've never been so proud of myself and so defeated and lonely at the same time. How do I make friends with shared interests, now that I finally know what my interests ARE, at 36 coming out of a pandemic?!