I just want to believe...
I want to believe that I am better than that one night stand.
Believe that I am better than that feeling of instant gratification that will surely be followed with a pit in my stomach so heavy yet I still feel so empty as the memories of a helpless child lying under a grown man fill my head.
Believe that I am worth more than 15 minutes of thrusting coming from behind while I am face down in the reality of what I am doing.
Believe that I am better than "send me a nude",
Believe that I am worth more than my physical body could even offer.
Believe that I am better than the touching and groping that I can't feel anyways with a mind that numbs under the touch of any man.
I wanna believe that I am worth more than any amount of male gaze could ever offer up to me but isn't that all I've ever known?
Please, love, just believe