I've been in a really bad depressive episode
I've been in a really bad depressive episode for a while now and I don't think I'm gonna be able to come out of this one. I've semi-successfully convinced myself I don't deserve to eat. I have friends but I don't really have a circle or anything resembling one, and frankly I'm not actually certain that I really have friends. Nothing helps anymore and getting through the days is actually getting so much harder. I used to be able to dissociate to get through work. That doesn't help anymore. Self harm doesn't work. Working out doesn't help. I can't sleep much. I think I'm at the end and I'm coming to terms with it.